Wednesday, January 6, 2010

my mother gave me some money to give to my teacher today... and i gave it to her... but one some friends presured me, i took the money back and my friends and i used it. its was $46 and i lost half of it while i was running. anyway my mother found out i skipped class and she asked my teacher did i give her the money. i came home and my mom confronted me.  i didnt tell her the whole truth. but shes already pretty upset, and told me shes sick and tired of me. and i feel so bad. and i feel like shit. i feel so bad, depressed and ugh. my friend didnt even care. they left me after we baought what they wanted. and then latter on they put on their myspace i'm stupid and stuff.  what does that tell me? i know who cares for me now. and i need to change, i need to take my deen seriously, listen to my mom and stay in school.  i am so disspointed in myself, my teacher my mother, and about every adult in my life lost their trust in me. i need do the right thing. i hope ill get all thier trust back soon. i realy need to work now. 

Saturday, January 2, 2010


Asalamalaikum Wa Rahamtullah Wa Barakatuhu,

Lately, I have been hearing lots of complaints from people all around me, family, friends, neighbors, and people I don’t even know.  I have decided to dedicate this blog to everyone who thinks they have some what of a difficult life, and are tired of it.  Some of the comments that I hear “Why me?  When will I get a break?  Everyone else has a perfect life? Why don’t my kids listen to me?  Why can’t I get help?  Why can’t I find a job? etc…”

As I pondered these questions and many more, I sat there and thought about all of the wonderful things these people had, and yet not once were they thankful.  Human beings are strange creatures, for they rarely thank the Creator of the Heavens and Earth for all the great things that He blesses us them with, like good health, a family, finances, children, a home, good friends, etc.  I rarely hear people nowadays being thankful to Allaah (SWT)